Three years ago, I felt like my world was falling apart. To be honest, it practically did. My partner at the time had just left to go overseas for an internship and I felt like my life support had gone with him.
I was so codependent, I didn’t know how to survive without him. That sounds dramatic and yet, it’s the truth that I hid from so many people in my life. My whole life halted to a standstill while I tried to figure out how to live without him for 2 months.
What happened? I lost my shit. I spiraled out of control, emotionally. I was getting drunk practically every night to numb the pain. I was texting him horrific, hurtful text messages. I was sitting on my bed, sobbing, trying to avoid what I felt was inevitable – sabotaging my life like I had done so many times before.
I felt rage day in and day out. I felt deeply abandoned and completely lost. My coach at the time was telling me, “Anne, you’re the perfect storm. Until you become responsible for your happiness, you will never be happy.” Periodically in our sessions he would ask me, “Anne, do you love yourself?” My response, “Sometimes.” That was putting it generously. I loved myself conditionally.
I loved myself when I was thin enough. I loved myself when I was in a relationship. I loved myself when the money was flowing in. I loved myself when my business was doing well. Did I love myself all the time? I didn’t even know that was possible. Did anyone actually love themselves all the time?
For years I had hidden, not wanting anyone to know the true pain I was experiencing underneath it all. As vulnerable as I appeared to be on social media, it always ended with a teachable twist. I was always focused on the positives, publicly, hoping that if I could just do enough positive thinking, I could avoid the darkness.
Multiple times throughout the demise of my relationship, I ended up on the floor, sobbing, feeling like I was exorcising demons out of my body. No one told me the spiritual journey would involve so many tears. No one told me what to expect. All I saw was, “Raise your vibe. Think positively. Love and light.” So what was wrong with me that I felt so fucking awful all the time?
There was one pivotal day when my eyes truly began to open. I was sitting there, on my meditation pillow, doing an inner child meditation and that’s when I realized that awful part of me I hated so much was simply a deeply wounded child within me who was terrified of making herself seen.
For years I had ignored her. For years I told her I hated her. For years I told her how she was fucking ruining my life. So, I punished her. I punished her with food, alcohol, codependent relationships, saying “yes” when I really wanted to say “no”.
The day she was brave enough to come forward and begin to share with me all her pain was the day I committed to never doing things the same way again.
I listened to her, letting her speak. She was allowed to yell at me and tell me all the things she hated about me. She was allowed to tell me what a terrible person I was for all the things I let others do to her over the years.
And then? I loved her. I loved her unconditionally in a way she had never been loved before.
And that was the beginning of The Natalie Work.
Working with my ego/my inner child/Natalie is how I have learned to work through fear, anxiety, depression, overwhelm, emotional eating/drinking, and financial rock bottom.
It is through this work that I learned how to hold space for myself to heal while still showing up for my clients, never compromising our work together.
And, I believe without a shadow of a doubt that this work is powerful enough to change the world.
Every single “problem” we experience in our lives stems from a lack of self-love, a lack of connection to self.
I know this work is deeply needed in each and every one of your lives.
I’ve included ego/shadow work in the work I’ve done with my clients for a couple years now, but never to the extent that I have within the past 6-8 months.
My clients have seen exponential growth since doing The Natalie Work together and one client recently said, “It’s such a practical approach to true self-love.”
The Natalie Work is infused in everything I do because it is simply that transformational. It puts the power of your healing in your own hands so you’re not dependent on a coach or therapist for the rest of your life.
If you’re ready to experience the transformation for yourself, Natalie and I are here to love you, guide you, and support you every step of the way.
In this two-hour deep dive, I will first intuitively tap into what is top of mind/most important for you based on a card reading (tarot, oracle deck, or both). From there, we will dive into what came up for you based on the intuitive reading and flow into any other struggles, challenges, or lack of clarity you’re experiencing. I will pinpoint and coach you through your limiting beliefs, as well as give you tools to implement beyond our session together.
**No medical or legal advice/guidance
Everything included in the two-hour deep dive plus one week of one-to-one Marco Polo (video messaging app) support to help you integrate the shifts you experienced during our call together.
**No medical or legal advice/guidance
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