What an interesting time we’re living in, huh? For those of us who are empaths, incredibly sensitive to energy, we’re managing a lot right now and trying to sort through what’s ours and what’s the collective’s. When we’re all intertwined, it can be hard to decipher between the two.
I don’t know about you, but in addition to everything that’s happening energetically, I’m also receiving a fuck ton of downloads on a daily basis. Sometimes they come late at night when I’m trying to fall asleep. Other times they come first thing in the morning before my eyes are even open. Then of course, I’m oftentimes bombarded throughout the day.
Yesterday was one of those days when information was coming through at what felt like a million miles a minute and it all felt incredibly urgent to put into action through some form of creation – blog, vlog, podcast, social media post, article, etc. It’s getting to the point where I literally cannot create as quickly as I’m receiving information.
To top it all off, much of the channeled information I’m receiving is highly controversial in comparison to the mainstream narrative trying to hang on for dear life. I’m so grateful to the few close friends I have who are on the same wavelength and receiving very similar messages. They give me a safe space to work through the messages when I don’t have the energy within me to sit down and write it all out.
As a channel, I have had to learn how best to sort through and process the information I receive from Spirit. Sometimes writing is the most productive form, but other times it’s through speaking. It’s also why I have so many outlets for my content.
For years, I had no clue I was a channel. I thought it was others who had the gift. I had no clue that we all have the capability but only some of us choose to open and hone our gifts.
Over time, I’ve paid attention to how channeling has truly served me and why I trust my channeled messages more than the messages I receive from the outside world (even when they appear to sound crazy to others).
It really began to make sense to me once I reflected on my childhood. As a young child, I had encephalitis (inflammation of the brain), which later affected my ability to comprehend. Learning and regurgitating information was a really big struggle for me. Reading comprehension was tough and subjects like history felt like hell to get through.
My entire life, I wanted to be “gifted” like my brothers. The more I struggled, the more stupid I felt. I was oftentimes called gullible, as well, because it was so much easier to just trust what someone who appeared smarter than me was telling me. The only thing that ever felt easy and enjoyable was writing.
I was never the child who could just regurgitate facts. And, when challenged to prove anything, I would freeze. This caused me to shut down my voice over time, as well. I trusted others over myself. I trusted that others who could regurgitate facts must know more than I did because they were clearly stronger in a skill I was not. Not to mention, regurgitation of facts is a skill that is currently valued in our society (although that is changing as we collectively awaken).
In 2016, I began to awaken and embarked on my own spiritual awakening journey. I started to receive messages from Spirit without fully understanding what was happening. I had many moments in my life where I just knew things but didn’t know how I knew them. There was no proof, but it felt like truth in my body. This showed up most times in romantic relationships. I knew when something was off, but didn’t have external proof, so I ignored my own energetic red flags and stayed in relationships longer than was healthy for me.
In 2017, Spirit told me to sell all my shit in my two bedroom apartment and hit the road. It was not just a whisper I received from my soul. It was a knowing in my body that it was my next step. Logical? Fuck no. Necessary? Absolutely.
I thought it was going to be an easy breezy fun time! There have been moments of lots of joy and overwhelming gratitude, but it has felt more like an intuitive bootcamp. I have been asked to trust in ways I’ve never been asked to trust before. I’ve been nearly forced to trust my intuition instead of what I see with my physical eyes more times than I can count.
And now, it’s becoming more and more clear as to why. I am learning spiritual truth through my own experience of life. Many spiritual teachers read all the books, study all the spiritual laws, and show up regurgitating information to others. They come across as “qualified” because they’ve taken the appropriate courses and gotten their certification.
I’ve read the books, I’ve listened to the podcasts, I’ve consumed the content, but it wasn’t until I applied it to my life and fully embodied what I learned that I could finally show up and teach it to others. What I teach is unfuckwithable because it is my story. I have experienced spiritual truth firsthand. I didn’t just read it in a book and then try to teach it to someone else. It has first been filtered through my own experience of life.
I’ve cultivated an unbreakable trust with my intuition. I know the messages that come through me are as pure as possible because I didn’t read them somewhere. The information I share isn’t simply being regurgitated because I can’t regurgitate information to save my damn life.
I now see how what I believed were weaknesses would have only held me back in life if they had been strengths of mine.
All information in the external world is always first filtered through someone else’s level of consciousness – even mine.
Yes, the messages I receive are pure, however in order to relay them as purely as possible, I have to be able to lovingly put my Ego to the side. I have to get out of my own way and not judge the message coming through. I am learning how to not edit what I receive and trust that the message is exactly what it needs to be.
My only job is to decipher where each message is to be appropriately delivered and who it’s actually for. This gift of mine has given me a level of confidence I never had until now. It has given me a level of trust, independence, and non-attachment to the outside world, fully being able to trust my next step. It has allowed me to observe what is happening on a human level, while understanding it on a spiritual level, giving me the capacity to love, have compassion for, and teach others from a non-judgmental space.
We’re always being given what we need. It’s a waste of time to try and strengthen a skill that feels hard and unenjoyable. Our God-given gifts are God-given for a reason. Our inner-child always knows the path when we allow ourselves to get quiet enough to listen.