Limiting beliefs again? Are you joking? Anyone else with me on this one?
I’m a pro at pinpointing someone else’s limiting beliefs. Like, give me about .2 seconds of a conversation with you and I can most likely figure out why you’re not achieving the next level goal you’re aiming for.
Between your words and your energy, I’ll know things about you where you’re like, “Um excuse me, Anne, but would you care to tell me where the fuck you placed cameras in my house? Kthnx!”
And yet, when it came to doing my own limiting belief work, I was beginning to slip without even realizing it.
This isn’t to say that I wasn’t aware of my ego (whom I call Natalie). I am very aware of her. She and are like BFFs after years of working with her on not completely sabotaging my life.
But over the weekend, I decided to take the entire weekend off from social media because I wasn’t comfortable with the slight level of addiction that was coming back. The first 2 hours were cake. Natalie was all, “This is so great! How fun that we get to spend some time together.” Two hours later, though, was a different story.
“What are you doing?”
“OMG our business is gonna collapse!”
“I’m fucking bored. For the love of God, please get back on social media.”
On Sunday, a slight level of anger and depression began to set in as I began to get really fucking frustrated on things in my life and business that seemed to not be budging. And, that’s when it hit me.
As I tell my clients, “Where you’re triggered is where the work is.”
I was definitely triggered. I was pissed at God and I realized that my lack of belief that I would be supported unconditionally came back up again.
After going out for a long ass walk, I came back home and sat down with my journal. I did what I’ve done so many times before right before getting massive clarity – I wrote an angry letter to God. I’m talkin’ real talk:
“No more fucking around. I’m putting in the work. I’m busting my ass and I feel like I’m left hanging, wondering what to do next. I get fucking hawks and angel numbers without knowing what to do with that information.”
Those of you who get signs when you haven’t asked a specific question know what I’m talking about. Like, “God…for realz. Enough with the fucking hawks. Unless they have fucking signs around their necks telling me what my next move is, Imma need something clear as fucking day!” Am I right?
This morning, I woke up with more clarity. I realized I had limiting beliefs that were causing fear and anxiety, and whether I wanted to admit it or not, I was subconsciously committed to thinking those thoughts.
So I looked at them. I listed them all out and then looked at all the evidence in my life I could use to back up that those beliefs are true.
But then, I took it one step further. If those thoughts were true, the opposite story could also be true. So I listed those out and what I noticed was this: Not only did they feel better, but I also had evidence in my life to prove that those were just as true as the negative story I was consistently telling myself, subconsciously.
Once I uncovered all the things, it then became a choice – which story did I want to tell myself? Obviously the one that felt better!
Sometimes we have to remember that the internal work is not one and done. Every time we uplevel, those limiting beliefs will come back to haunt us and sometimes the only way we know they’re ever there is by what we are physically experiencing in our external world.
Find gratitude for the contrast because it’s showing you what you didn’t even know you were believing!